Life after Lucy was born was different than I anticipated.
Kurt has been busier than ever this year which is a good thing but it also means we haven't seen him very much. And sadly that didn't change after she was born. He was there the day she was born but that was the extent of his time off.
That first week I brought her home I was really unhappy about it. To the point that I was ready to call my Doctor for postpartum depression. One of my most favorite times {ever} is bringing home a new baby. The spirit is strong and sweet and I can't think of anything more magical. But he was missing it. And I was racking my brain for the reasons WHY we were doing this {owning our own business?} What are the benefits? I would take having a husband in my life over money every time.
I finally expressed my feelings at the end of the week. Communicating helped.
Its been a month and I still get frustrated. Last night I had a reality check. I have turned into that complaining, nagging, unhappy wife I never wanted to be. Why have I been so selfish and so consumed in my own unhappiness? Have I thought about Kurt's sacrifice? He works so hard, endlessly, to provide for our family. I have been ungrateful and unappreciative. He does not want to give up the business so I need to be supportive.
The change will come from me.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Phillips Lake
Monday through Wednesday were devoted to the Romans' family annual camp out. We switched it up this year by going a month earlier and trying a completely new location. We went to Phillips Lake just 20 minutes out of Baker City. Have to say that I LOVED the location. It was beautiful, it wasn't overly hot, the bugs were sooo minimal and there was a variety of things to do. We had a wonderful time!
I never realized how much these two look a like.
I'm pretty sure we just ATE the entire time we were there. There was so much good food. Thank you every one for your delicious contributions.
Tuesday night while we were dining on yet another dutch oven masterpiece Emma asks, "Why can't we just have hot dogs?" LOL
After grandpa went on a walk with the kids he was ready for a nap. He invited all the kids into his tent to nap with him. :D They played cousin stack up {how many cousins can you stack up on top of each other??} Definitely the party tent and amazingly enough no one got hurt. Only lots and lots of laughter.
Besides eating we played horseshoes,
blew bubbles, bounced balls, rode bikes, drew pictures
and watched for birds
And then there was the WATER activities! The Lake was so much fun, the kids especially loved it.
We added a raft to our camping supplies this year and I'm so glad we did. It was a fun addition!
Monday before we got to camp Grandpa Ken took Braxton and Brooke tubing on his boat. My kids were sad they missed it until they went out in their raft on Tuesday. That was just as great in their mind.
Austin got to be quite the proficient rower.
Wednesday all the cousins went down to the lake before we left camp. Marti had brought her supply of water toys and plus our raft and thus was born the WATER PARADE. {the water, water, water, WATER parade.} They were "singing" this song at the top of their lungs for the whole lake to hear.
Camping was a little bit different for me this time since I was bringing a 1 month old. All in all she did great but she was starting to get fussy by the end. There was something disturbing to me about having my infant smell like a campfire. She definitely didn't sleep as well but Bill and Cindy were kind enough to bring their trailer for us and Kelli and Kenzie to sleep in. She spent most of the time in the infant carrier.
At one point she was very alert when it was time to change her diaper so I let her check out the forest for just a minute.
This is where we found Austin when Lucy was taking her only nap of the entire trip not in the infant carrier.
He was hard for him to have her strapped to me all the time.
One of my most favorite things of this camping trip was watching the cousins play together. Spencer and Braxton: Hiding the Suburban cause they needed a warm place to write down their super powers. Those two are inseparable. It made me really sad they won't go to school together.
Rooster and Brooke-O: just their endless chatter with each other makes me SMILE. Especially around a campfire.
"Did you paint your babies fingernails?"
"Yes."
"What color?"
"Pink."
"You should paint her toes too."
Kenzie and Mollie: they were sooo adorable chasing the birds all over the place. I really wish I would have gotten a picture or video cause their little legs running all over the place is too cute.
And then there is Madison. Who is SO adorable. Period.
I LOVE her facial expressions. And her need to explore everything.
She was everywhere.
Emma was a helpful big cousin. "Mom, I just love Madison. She is so cute."
The kids always want to get this plus-size jar of cheesy goodness when we go to the store. Naturally I always say no without thinking. I finally gave in for this camping trip, when else can you justify such things?
The funniest part is that when we were breaking up camp on Wednesday I saw 3 cheese balls placed evenly apart on the picnic bench. I didn't think much about it before throwing them away. That night as I was tucking Roost in bed she was chatting about the camping trip. She told me that she was going to catch a chipmunk. I was curious how she planned to do that and she told me with the cheese balls. Her and Brooke-O had put 3 cheese balls on the bench for the chipmunks to eat and then they would grab them! Cheese balls are the perfect bait for everyone. ;)
It was a wonderful camping trip. Thank you, THANK YOU everyone!
I never realized how much these two look a like.
I'm pretty sure we just ATE the entire time we were there. There was so much good food. Thank you every one for your delicious contributions.
Tuesday night while we were dining on yet another dutch oven masterpiece Emma asks, "Why can't we just have hot dogs?" LOL
After grandpa went on a walk with the kids he was ready for a nap. He invited all the kids into his tent to nap with him. :D They played cousin stack up {how many cousins can you stack up on top of each other??} Definitely the party tent and amazingly enough no one got hurt. Only lots and lots of laughter.
Besides eating we played horseshoes,
blew bubbles, bounced balls, rode bikes, drew pictures
and watched for birds
And then there was the WATER activities! The Lake was so much fun, the kids especially loved it.
We added a raft to our camping supplies this year and I'm so glad we did. It was a fun addition!
Monday before we got to camp Grandpa Ken took Braxton and Brooke tubing on his boat. My kids were sad they missed it until they went out in their raft on Tuesday. That was just as great in their mind.
Austin got to be quite the proficient rower.
Wednesday all the cousins went down to the lake before we left camp. Marti had brought her supply of water toys and plus our raft and thus was born the WATER PARADE. {the water, water, water, WATER parade.} They were "singing" this song at the top of their lungs for the whole lake to hear.
Camping was a little bit different for me this time since I was bringing a 1 month old. All in all she did great but she was starting to get fussy by the end. There was something disturbing to me about having my infant smell like a campfire. She definitely didn't sleep as well but Bill and Cindy were kind enough to bring their trailer for us and Kelli and Kenzie to sleep in. She spent most of the time in the infant carrier.
At one point she was very alert when it was time to change her diaper so I let her check out the forest for just a minute.
This is where we found Austin when Lucy was taking her only nap of the entire trip not in the infant carrier.
He was hard for him to have her strapped to me all the time.
One of my most favorite things of this camping trip was watching the cousins play together. Spencer and Braxton: Hiding the Suburban cause they needed a warm place to write down their super powers. Those two are inseparable. It made me really sad they won't go to school together.
Rooster and Brooke-O: just their endless chatter with each other makes me SMILE. Especially around a campfire.
"Did you paint your babies fingernails?"
"Yes."
"What color?"
"Pink."
"You should paint her toes too."
Kenzie and Mollie: they were sooo adorable chasing the birds all over the place. I really wish I would have gotten a picture or video cause their little legs running all over the place is too cute.
And then there is Madison. Who is SO adorable. Period.
I LOVE her facial expressions. And her need to explore everything.
She was everywhere.
Emma was a helpful big cousin. "Mom, I just love Madison. She is so cute."
The kids always want to get this plus-size jar of cheesy goodness when we go to the store. Naturally I always say no without thinking. I finally gave in for this camping trip, when else can you justify such things?
The funniest part is that when we were breaking up camp on Wednesday I saw 3 cheese balls placed evenly apart on the picnic bench. I didn't think much about it before throwing them away. That night as I was tucking Roost in bed she was chatting about the camping trip. She told me that she was going to catch a chipmunk. I was curious how she planned to do that and she told me with the cheese balls. Her and Brooke-O had put 3 cheese balls on the bench for the chipmunks to eat and then they would grab them! Cheese balls are the perfect bait for everyone. ;)
It was a wonderful camping trip. Thank you, THANK YOU everyone!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
ONE month
Already?!?!!
{The lamb measuring stick to chart her growth the first year.}
STATS
*Super sleeper {6-8 hours at night.}
*Super gasy
{I never had a baby with so much gas! The kids think its hilarious,
imagine that.}
*Super nurser {we are on a good schedule, the painful stage is behind us.}
She teases us with smiles. I know the "real" ones are just around the corner.
She has gotten loud. When she needs something she lets it be known. I think its survival of the fittest.
During the day she sleeps the best all cuddled up with me. She has a great relationship with her pink soothie paci.
She's a keeper.
{The lamb measuring stick to chart her growth the first year.}
STATS
*Super sleeper {6-8 hours at night.}
*Super gasy
{I never had a baby with so much gas! The kids think its hilarious,
imagine that.}
*Super nurser {we are on a good schedule, the painful stage is behind us.}
She teases us with smiles. I know the "real" ones are just around the corner.
She has gotten loud. When she needs something she lets it be known. I think its survival of the fittest.
During the day she sleeps the best all cuddled up with me. She has a great relationship with her pink soothie paci.
She's a keeper.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
*M*a*G*I*c*
Do you believe in magic?
How can you not believe after meeting this angel.
In my mind magic and miralces are synonymous.
The love and innocence and happiness a newborn brings into the home is miraculous.
Snuggling soft new skin is magical.
Stealing endless kisses on tiny perfect part is magical.
Watching her bond with siblings is miraculous.
Having her consistently sleep 6-8 hours at night is magically mirculous!
For me, the newborn stage is magical. I.LOVE.IT. I've always thought that the best job in the world is to love on a newborn. Ahhhhhhhh. I also think the bond between mother and baby is magical. To know your baby and fulfill their needs in a way that no one else can.
I believe in magic.
How can you not believe after meeting this angel.
In my mind magic and miralces are synonymous.
The love and innocence and happiness a newborn brings into the home is miraculous.
Snuggling soft new skin is magical.
Stealing endless kisses on tiny perfect part is magical.
Watching her bond with siblings is miraculous.
Having her consistently sleep 6-8 hours at night is magically mirculous!
For me, the newborn stage is magical. I.LOVE.IT. I've always thought that the best job in the world is to love on a newborn. Ahhhhhhhh. I also think the bond between mother and baby is magical. To know your baby and fulfill their needs in a way that no one else can.
I believe in magic.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Hallie
Happy 4th Birthday Hallie.
It is interesting because as the kids get older we have more discussions about real topics. This was the first year Ruth was old enough to start to understand what happened. She found the whole thing confusing at first but luckily that didn't last long. The rest of the day she chattered about loving Hallie and heaven and seeing her again.
We miss you Hallie. We look forward to seeing you again and getting to know your sweet spirit. Thank you for teaching your cousins about the gospel. We LOVE you!
It is interesting because as the kids get older we have more discussions about real topics. This was the first year Ruth was old enough to start to understand what happened. She found the whole thing confusing at first but luckily that didn't last long. The rest of the day she chattered about loving Hallie and heaven and seeing her again.
We miss you Hallie. We look forward to seeing you again and getting to know your sweet spirit. Thank you for teaching your cousins about the gospel. We LOVE you!
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Creative Thoughtfulness
Emma Lynn is SOOO excited about Karen's upcoming wedding to Roger McMullan on August 2nd in the Bountiful temple.
She has been talking about it nonstop. She inquires about the details of Karen's attire every 5 minutes. She doesn't have her required brown sandals yet so she was trying to plan our day around the purchase of her footwear. She spent the better part of the morning making cards and crowns for "the prince and princess." {direct quote.}
She also found taffy in the cooridinating wedding colors and wrapped it up for them. There are other projects in store for the days to come such as a countdown, posters and flowers. I have a feeling we will be bringing quite a stash of Emma's thoughtfulness to the wedding. Emma is generous with cards and love notes. It is good to be loved by her. :)
She has played careful attention to the color scheme. These things are very important.
While Emma Lynn was creating Spencer brings me this masterpiece:
"See mom, I can be creative too!":D
{carrot nose and hair, super creative.}
She has been talking about it nonstop. She inquires about the details of Karen's attire every 5 minutes. She doesn't have her required brown sandals yet so she was trying to plan our day around the purchase of her footwear. She spent the better part of the morning making cards and crowns for "the prince and princess." {direct quote.}
She also found taffy in the cooridinating wedding colors and wrapped it up for them. There are other projects in store for the days to come such as a countdown, posters and flowers. I have a feeling we will be bringing quite a stash of Emma's thoughtfulness to the wedding. Emma is generous with cards and love notes. It is good to be loved by her. :)
She has played careful attention to the color scheme. These things are very important.
While Emma Lynn was creating Spencer brings me this masterpiece:
"See mom, I can be creative too!":D
{carrot nose and hair, super creative.}
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Meridian
The location of PLAY today. Marti, Krystal, Jessica and I all met at BOUNCE {where Spencer had his birthday party.} The girls hadn't been there before so it was fun to see their excitement. They held hands doing everything, so cute.
New one - put on a Velcro suit and jump and stick to the Velcro wall.
The next stop was Settler's park. I have wanted to check out this park for about 3 summers now. I'm so glad we finally went. It is completely awesome. And I am not ashamed to admit that I was convetting such a park for Vale......Great splash pad, amazing play ground, music toys to play on, rocks wall to climb, fabulous seating...ahhh, LOVE.
Over zealous sun screen application.
LOVE this picture - when the water got cold the best way to warm up was to lay on the hot cement.
New one - put on a Velcro suit and jump and stick to the Velcro wall.
The next stop was Settler's park. I have wanted to check out this park for about 3 summers now. I'm so glad we finally went. It is completely awesome. And I am not ashamed to admit that I was convetting such a park for Vale......Great splash pad, amazing play ground, music toys to play on, rocks wall to climb, fabulous seating...ahhh, LOVE.
Over zealous sun screen application.
LOVE this picture - when the water got cold the best way to warm up was to lay on the hot cement.
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